[Error: unknown template qotd] Too many me's, too many characters. As a child, I devoured books, went from one character to another so quickly my head spun, relating to everyone and no one. Later, tv shows started to catch my attention, and as a teenager I remember thinking I was Rickie Vasquez from My So-Called Life, because I didn't fit anywhere, had issues over sexuality, and never felt safe. It was funny because I loved the female characters from that show, but wasn't innocent enough to be Angela, and Rayanne was sort of like the person I let people think I was.
In the past few years, anime has been such a defining part of my life that I'd have to pick an anime character. For a long time it was Hanajima Saki (from Fruits Basket), and she's still my avatar in a lot of places. For her protectiveness of those she loves, her fear of hurting others, and her darkness. More recently I'm obsessed with Umino Iruka, because his own loneliness and sadness drives him to help others and be a part of the world rather than retreating from it further. I like to imagine my own drive to help others based on my past pain is as beautiful as the drive I see in him.
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