lecanis

[Error: unknown template qotd]Physical and sexual abuse, starvation, neglect, abandonment, rape... my whole early life I suppose? I have forgiven some of the people involved in my situation, those who basically weren't in a position to do anything to help me, or who have become decent people since that time (my father, for example). However, there will always be those I can't forgive, and no "i'm sorry" can fix it. I feel almost guilty for not forgiving my mother, who has said she is sorry, but there's too much pain there still, and so rather than forgiving her I settle for being kind to her but keeping her at arm's length.

The other people who hurt me worst are dead now, so I guess it doesn't matter now if I forgive them or not. They carry the burden of their crimes into whatever their next life will be, and I carry my own pain as well as I can, learning to live with flashbacks and social issues, and making myself live my life the best I can despite these things.